This week has been quite a week! Every bit of my old blueprint has been desperately pulling me away from building the foundation of my new blueprint.
What’s the old blueprint? For me, those old habits of procrastinating, watching tv to chill out, sleep, old habits with no focus, no structure, no “Go-get-it” about myself (like my husband likes to say). I have felt my new blueprint try to push through and to be honest, it has not been winning. And then, one day, I wake in the morning and something just turns on on the inside of me and I just turn on the new side that has motivation, inspiration and that push and she makes a decision to commit and finish strong!
For so long I have been a great “starter” and a horrible finisher. Well, I say no more! That stops now! I embrace my true self who has been hidden under cement for too long. I welcome my golden self to the front. It has been hard to envision who she really is but I am ready to see her. I think just always trying to be the perfect person that everyone has expected of me has kept me from pursuing her. It saddens me that I allowed the world to dampen and hide her but I am also so joyful to know that I now have the opportunity to allow her to breathe, flaws and all.
This week has been a very revealing week for me, It was much needed and appreciated.
……….. And breathe…….